Update

Well since I havent been on here since October, thought I should let you know whats changed. We had snow, snow and more snow. In fact knee deep snow which left most of Scotland at a standstill and meant no school for nearly two weeks. Then we had our prelims. They were stressful but I did okay in them. Pleasently surprised with Chemistry which I got a B in and English which I got a 1/2 in, everything else was as expected or worse. Then we had Christmas. Had a very good time. Was very ill with swine flu for basically the whole holidays and was struggling to get out my bed on Christmas Day but it was overall a fantastic day still. Got a real leather jacket and perfume and about 100 nail polishes and lots of other little things. And now everything is back to "normal" although school still feels like a madhouse and things are still very busy and stressful. The next while is due to bring our option choices for next year, then our exams, then my baby sisters first birthday then exam results. Gonna be a hectic couple of months but bring it on!!

Well first half of friday was great, went to see this play called the monster in the hall with lauren and kayleigh, it was about a girl called duck (my favourite character) and her motorbike-loving dad who had MS, it was deep but really funny and fantastic and then way back revovled around doritos and christmas songs, then lunch was RAINY but was forced to go to touch with lauren, so waited under this random roof sitting on the ground like a meditation circle me frantically revising for an RMPS nab i had next period, lauren doing maths homework then giving up when my calculator broke and kayleigh just eating chocolate. Well RMPS nab ... mega failure...enough said and then of all subjects to end the day maths. Yesterday went to Kirkcaldy with my family and my bro decided to be a prick so i made the rest of his day hell, and then we went to my grans house to say my baby cousins birthday cake but it wasnt finished and we werent allowed to see it, well later today is ruaridhs party, cant believe hes one already, well thats all, and please follow my blog for my baby sis too!!!!! kx

Hmm

Not written in here in AGES, I only ever seem to come on when I'm in a bad mood so this blog might seem depressing lol. I'm not always this moany, honest.

Well anyway whats changed - not alot, Anthony came back for a short but sweet visit, Sarah is still in Scotland but not at school, the usual family chaos and arguements has taken place, Amber is now one and a half moths old but check out her blog, school is becoming more stressful by the day, I have given up ALL enthusiasm for art - I think 1000 word essays every night for 3 weeks killed any joy I indulged in in Art before, considering I study 7 other subject I want to pass as well, including an RMPS NAB on Theology I need to pass and revise for.

But yesterday I started a self defence martial arts class with Lauren, Liam, Kirstin and Ellie which was amazingly fun lol!

Oh and its my baby cousins first birthday, Ruaridh who I have been close too since he was born turns one! I only have two cousins and I am paticulary close to Ruaridh. Happy birthday lil roo!!!!! The photo is of him - ages ago when he was 4 months old mind you and hes 12 months now but oh well its a nice photo.

And we had a moustache day at school which was fun - ill post pictures when a certain someone puts them online

I would write more if I was bothered but sadly im not lol, see you in a months+ time again lol,

kerri xxx

Link to Amber's blog

Here is where I'll keep the world posted about Amber instead of her taking over this blog and boring everyone. Love her lots. x

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Hey, not been on here in about 2 months and ALOT has changed in that time, some were good changes, most were bad.

So here we go, firstly is the fact that Anthony, one of my best friends, moved to Edinburgh and left our school for a £30,000 per year private school called Stewart Melville, trouble is he didnt say goodbye and hasnt kept in touch, he simply decided one day a few weeks before the start of summer that he wasnt ever coming back and didnt think to tell anyone and has been ignoring everyone since, sometimes i really miss him and sometimes i hate him for turning his back on us like that - he could have at least had the decency and courage to say goodbye,

secondly is the fact that Sarah who Ive been literally best friends with and shared everything with since primary school is moving to the south of england,im gonna miss her like hell but at least i trust she will keep in touch, im used to not seeing her in a while cause shes hardly in school but i am going to hate the fact that before i could just meet up and talk with her if i wanted and now she'll be a good 500 miles away,

and probably the most life-changing thing thats happened was the birth of my baby sister Amber Rose Sutherland on the 13th August (9 days ago), she is truly beautiful, i love her to bits, i can tell im going to spoil her when shes older, she has amazingly gorgeous dark hair, blue eyes still at the moment, she was 9lb 14 1/2 oz at brith and 57 cm so a big baby lol, she is amazing,

id like to thank lauren and sarah for being there for me throughout these changes :)

and thats all i can be bothered writing but ill start using eblogger again, ill make amber her own blog instead of boring everyone about her here lol, xxx

Well this past week has been soooo terriable and i cba writing much so i will just list whats happened then leave

1.A bright and cheery girl Lauren Murphy in my year passed away on a school trip to London - alot of my friends were close to her and were very upset. My freinds who were in London were a bit shaken up. And its quite shocking, she was just 14 and didnt deserve this. RIP Lauren! xx

2. I found out I would never be seeing my close freind Anthony ever again. Im going to miss him and he never told me he was leaving so I never even got to say goodbye.

3. The Inverkeithing Paper Mill which is literally my whole childhood and family heritage in one building burned to a crisp. Grew up in the mill, my whole family worked there and have done for generations, my great gran emigrated to work there, my uncle was the boss, my Dad worked there for ages, it kinda symbolises happier times in my family, and its gone. (Im thinking of visiting my Great-Grans grave - she worked there and loved the place or go down to Inverkeithing and say goodbye to the place) I wouldnt exist were it not for this mill! Im devastated!!! Only found out via my cousin who lives next to the mill a few hours ago as it was burning. It was 196 years old. Goodbye mill xxx

4. My close friend Sarah has once again been admitted to a phyciatric hospital.

5. There has been plenty of arguements in my family

I’m losing everyone, one by one they drift away to greener pastures with barely a whispered goodbye,
While I’m left to pick up the pieces of a broken dream, sweep up the shards of what could have been perfect,
Bleak nights have been spent pondering this cruel mystery-the merciless act of a damaged society,
I’m losing everyone, they leave, they go, people graffiti works of art for the thrill of the chase,
But I’ve given up chasing.

I’m losing myself, someone I thought I knew, believed in, trusted, now less of friend; more of a foe,
My emotions conflict like a political riot; like a carnival; a carasol of senses whirling in my mind,
I don’t know who I am anymore, what I am, why I am, am I supposed to be a hero, save the world in a single move,
I’m losing myself in obsessive fantasy worlds like a cop chasing the harsh evil criminal of reality,
But I’ve given up chasing.

Its got to be THE crappiest poem i have ever written but i cba so this will do
TBH ive given up chasing. officially. atm ts just me against the world and the world is winning
as you can guess im having a crap week, im in a crap mood and ive had enough